honestly i didn't think I'd pass, nor that I'd look how I look right now, nor that I'd become a microceleb, nor anything that's happening right now. Honestly? I think I thought I'd be dead by now. But speculation doesn't take us anywhere; what matters now is that I was completely wrong, that I didn't lose my teenage years, and that I'm a girl. I didn't expect anything close to this. I didn't think it'd come so quickly. I didn't think I could ever really live as a woman without deluding myself. I was wrong, like 15 year olds typically are.